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hectic week/month/start of the year. i thought i would NEVER have a serious, relationship-threatening fight with my boyfriend. oh, but how life surprises you. i'm not going to get into details because it was and still is our business, but the gist of it was, i told him, "hey could you not do this little thing for me? you know because it's something i dont condone." but hey, he did it. and that was the start of the deterioration of trust and unconditional love in our relationship. since then we've been fighting almost everyday with some good days in between the crying and yelling. such is life. things have been starting to work out, and i know i wont be able to trust him for a while, but hopefully things get better. immense jealousy also comes into play, and its actually radiating from both of us. i hate insecurity. it's probably the #1 murderer of love. it's always "oh who're you talking to at 11pm?" or "why are you looking at her? if you dont like me, then leave me." ughhh i hate jealousy. isn't it a sin? lmao. and it's really funny because he has specific boys that he is jealous of (btw i mostly only have guy friends) and i'm jealous of every chick that walks by. oh, we're hopeless. i guess it's because we realized that we're not the prettiest fish in the sea, and we're not all that great. but to each other we are, i just wish we could admit that to each other. i guess in order to be truly happy in a relationship, you need to overcome the highest obstacles that you come upon.
It's not what people do to us that hurts.
In the most fundamental sense,
it's our chosen response
to what they do to us that hurts.
© CUTEQTS.
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| and just when i think i've had enough, you always pull me back and make me fall in love with you.
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| on december 30, 2008 he asked me to be his girlfriend. i believe my first answer was "maybe". he repeated my answer and gave me a kiss. that was when i knew, he's the one. i would do anything to relive that day, when i was anxiously waiting for him, blushing like a fool when he came over, sitting on the floor watching tv with his arms wrapped around me. yea that day. but i dont have to just relive that day, its basically all we ever do. and i'm happy i have him to spend my life with. happy one year anniversary, baby.
i love you.
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